Sometimes I Float In Between

I only know the light because I’ve lived through the dark.My body, buried in the heavy, damp soil.Ready to decompose with the earth.Destined for more,My soul wouldn’t rest. Though suffocated by the soil,Spirit clawed its way through the dirt that tried to encapsulate it,simultaneously being kept alive by way of the earth’s minerals and nutrients.Continue reading “Sometimes I Float In Between”

A Sunset and A Second Wind

Some folks relish the sunrises.The dawning of a new day. Glorious rays of sunlightthat beam with possibilities of what’s to come. But the sunset always feels like home. The grand finale beforeact II for the night. As it ushers in the inky deep blue, we can slink away into the darkness. This is where IContinue reading “A Sunset and A Second Wind”

Rollercoaster of Emotions

“How do you feel?”  “I’m good, I feel fine. Just some adjusting to not going out to bars and restaurants, otherwise I’m dealing.” That’s my typical response. Under the surface, I’m distracted. Some days I’m more focused than others. Some days, I’m able to focus on getting work done, doing more research about work, andContinue reading “Rollercoaster of Emotions”

You, Your Head, and the Environment

Do you ever just sit with yourself? Come home without turning the tv on? Commute without listening to your headphones? Sometimes it’s nice to just be quiet; to not depend on external sounds for comfort. Can you be comfortable when it’s just you, your head, and the environment?  Image captured by me at Bush TerminalContinue reading “You, Your Head, and the Environment”

The Poison and The Remedy

Three drinks by my side. Because my emotions are running deep. How do I maintain a semblance of balance? Whiskey on the rocks, a band-aid for my pain. Green smoothie; I’m being healthy about “detoxing.” Water, to stay properly hydrated. Seems I will never be vice-free. Image captured by me.

Still Trying to Figure it Out

Sometimes I just feel emotionally all over the place. More of a, “still trying to figure it out” kind of feeling. Like, “what the hell am I doing? What’s happening in my life?” kinda thing.  But something is happening at the moment, some sort of shift. I can only hope that maybe one day I’llContinue reading “Still Trying to Figure it Out”

I See the Light But…

I finally see the sun through the forest. Slivers of light make their way through the dense packing of the trees. A clearing is in the distance. But—there seems to be a magnetic force around me. That’s what it is right? That’s why can’t I step towards the clearing. … what else could be preventingContinue reading “I See the Light But…”

Into the Darkness

I saw the light with you; but also saw the underworld. We plunged into the darkness, ventured into the unknown. Something about it was so beautifully scary; intoxicating. But it was time to take a break, to embrace the light again. You made your home in the darkness, established your throne.

Own Worst Enemy

Feelings are just that, feelings. It’s also because of them, that we do the things we do. It’s because of our feelings, our desires for one another, that we hope to execute shared dreams; that we invest and feed each other’s souls. What do we do when it all seems to be in jeopardy? WhenContinue reading “Own Worst Enemy”

What is Strength?

So much time spent trying to be strong, when maybe we’re afraid.Or unsure.Or because we fear being vulnerable. But what if being strong also means being receptive?Understanding that emotions are complex and sometimes messy.That it takes strength to sort through these feelings and understand them better.As humans, we have a penchant for making things harderContinue reading “What is Strength?”

Support Systems

We all need a support system. Sometimes we shut down and need to be alone; sometimes we need the support of our loved ones. Even if we don’t want to ask. The ones who care about our well being, our mental states. Those who may not always agree with what we do, but are thereContinue reading “Support Systems”

Central Park, My Playground

A young girl from Queens, Central Park was my playground. E, F, and R trains, with direct routes to Midtown, placing you at the entrance or within walking distance. Climbing up and down monstrous rocks and boulders, quite a feat for a child- Rollerblading on paved park streets of concrete, swerving in and out ofContinue reading “Central Park, My Playground”