The Poison and The Remedy

Three drinks by my side. Because my emotions are running deep. How do I maintain a semblance of balance? Whiskey on the rocks, a band-aid for my pain. Green smoothie; I’m being healthy about “detoxing.” Water, to stay properly hydrated. Seems I will never be vice-free. Image captured by me.

Still Trying to Figure it Out

Sometimes I just feel emotionally all over the place. More of a, “still trying to figure it out” kind of feeling. Like, “what the hell am I doing? What’s happening in my life?” kinda thing.  But something is happening at the moment, some sort of shift. I can only hope that maybe one day I’llContinue reading “Still Trying to Figure it Out”

I See the Light But…

I finally see the sun through the forest. Slivers of light make their way through the dense packing of the trees. A clearing is in the distance. But—there seems to be a magnetic force around me. That’s what it is right? That’s why can’t I step towards the clearing. … what else could be preventingContinue reading “I See the Light But…”

Into the Darkness

I saw the light with you; but also saw the underworld. We plunged into the darkness, ventured into the unknown. Something about it was so beautifully scary; intoxicating. But it was time to take a break, to embrace the light again. You made your home in the darkness, established your throne.

Sadness is my friend, my foe

Sadness is my friend, my foe. Sometimes I can sit with it and let it be. Other times it bubbles to the surface and boils over, leaving a mess in its wake. I let myself be consumed by it, rather than fighting the urge to control it. Photo taken by me at Green-Wood Cemetery inContinue reading “Sadness is my friend, my foe”

Own Worst Enemy

Feelings are just that, feelings. It’s also because of them, that we do the things we do. It’s because of our feelings, our desires for one another, that we hope to execute shared dreams; that we invest and feed each other’s souls. What do we do when it all seems to be in jeopardy? WhenContinue reading “Own Worst Enemy”

What is Strength?

So much time spent trying to represent strength, because of fear. Fear of being vulnerable; that somehow vulnerability equates to weakness. It doesn’t. Strength also means being receptive, understanding that emotions are messy and complex. We’re human beings with a penchant for making things harder than they need to be.   Photo captured by meContinue reading “What is Strength?”

Support Systems

We all need a support system. Sometimes we shut down and need to be alone; sometimes we need the support of our loved ones. Even if we don’t want to ask. The ones who care about our well being, our mental states. Those who may not always agree with what we do, but are thereContinue reading “Support Systems”

Central Park, My Playground

A young girl from Queens, Central Park was my playground. E, F, and R trains, with direct routes to Midtown, placing you at the entrance or within walking distance. Climbing up and down monstrous rocks and boulders, quite a feat for a child- Rollerblading on paved park streets of concrete, swerving in and out ofContinue reading “Central Park, My Playground”

Gratitude

Thank you for being you, for unknowingly being a muse, for cracking through my somewhat tough exterior. Thank you for believing in me, for encouraging me to be more active about things I was passive about. I’m still a work in progress, sometimes I fall off, but I think about what you’d say to meContinue reading “Gratitude”